How am I ever going to unwind?
I can feel calm all around me. I am ten storeys up on a hotel balcony above the beach in Santa Cruz. Countless tonnes of salt-water melancholy stroke at the sand in rolling sighs below me and were it not for the ten storeys between us I'd be hopping about in the foam. (Its lucky we have three dimensions).
I am trying to relax. I really am. I am warm, and drinking even hotter chocolate, but even here in this postcard of western calm my little brain still buzzes. Everything I have to think about whirrs at once and like the toddlers everyone hates, even when I put one to bed with an answer it's back five minutes later; 'but whhyyy?'
I don't know whhyyy. Just let me sleep.
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